Thursday, November 20, 2008

rEgResSioN

It’s been four years that we’ve stop our communication but there are moments that I do remember you and reminisce the moments that we have together. The song that we sung together, the bonding that we have had together, your sense of humor and the most I missed about you is your presence. Every time I need someone to talk to, you where there for me to listen and somehow feels me that I’m important.

All these things were mere a dream where just my fantasy. Should I wake up in the middle of my dream? This is my only way to with you. I can’t blame myself either because I just love you. We are dealing with a lot of changes. I believe you’re not the same man that I’ve loved who leave me on the 3rd day of May 2005 and promised me that you’ll stay the same J***** that I‘ve known since then. The truth that I need to accept, you‘ve love someone else and I feel that you‘re happy with her. Meanwhile, the dwelling love for you needs to stop. I need to love myself and let go the feelings I have had for you. I need to free myself from your shadow and spread my wings away from you to see how beautiful life is it without you.

LATER
fra lippo lippi

How could you come with me
When you know all along but you have to go
How could you watch me sleep so close to you
Pretending not to know
How could you memorize my name
And forget who I am
How could you think you’re still the same
Believing I care.

It’s too late to stop pretending
It’s too late for a new beginning
Later than the sunset
Later than the rain
Later than never to love you again.

How could you ask for more
When an innocent smile trusting me to stay
How could you close the door and leave me here
Supposing I’m okay
How could you breakdown my disguise
And uncover my fears
How could you look into my eyes
Ignoring my tears.


Every time I hear this song it reminds me the moment I cried to the man I loved so much. I am so thankful with this song. It helps me to release the pain I felt. I believe PAIN is part of loving someone. I’m glad that I’ve experienced how to love and to be loved. Hence, loving someone is the best thing in this world. In my case, full of regrets fill in my heart. Why oh why he don’t have the courage to tell me his feelings when we still have the TIME to be TOGETHER. A lot of “if only” and “what if” fills my heart and mind. But still my heart is hoping that in the end we will be together in each other arms.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Bakit ba?
Di mo matanggap na wala na nga.
Matagal nang natapos ngunit binabalik balikan mo pa.
Di mo maamin sa iyong sarili, na siya lang talaga.

Mula pa noong una siya lang at wala ng iba.
Marami man ang dumating mula noong umalis ka.
Ikaw pa rin ang iniibig sinta.
Dahil ikaw lamang at walang hihigit pa.

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